“Big Daddy” is one of my younger sister’s favorite movies and there is a scene in the movie where the little boy is playing cards with his dad and his dad’s friends and no matter which cards he has or which cards everyone else has, the little boy declares that he wins. His dad is confused as to how the little boy keeps winning, but the little boy does not give much of an explanation, and simply says “because I win.” As followers of Christ, we win. It doesn’t matter what the situation is; it doesn’t matter how many other people went through it; it doesn’t matter how long it takes; it doesn’t matter what it looks like the end will be; we win.

In May of 2014 I had one more summer left before I graduated and I decided I would have a job lined up by the middle of June and would be moving in my own place in Atlanta after graduation. Well, the middle of June came and went. Some of my peers had been offered jobs and I celebrated with them, believing I would be next. I set a new deadline: 4th of July. I continued to apply for jobs, researched apartments in Atlanta, prayed and everything. The 4th of July came and went. On August 1 (the day I graduated), I was jobless and moving in with my aunt in Atlanta (who was awesome for letting me live with her). At the time, it felt like I had loss; I didn’t accomplish my goal (graduating didn’t count). As I recalled this story, it had not occurred to me that even though I did not have a job or my own place, I made it to Atlanta (and graduated!). So many people say they want to move somewhere and when things do not go their way, they doubt what God has told them and give up. This simply reminded me to thank God for what I may deem as the small victories, trusting that greater is coming because like I said before: I win.

Graduation (August 2014)

Graduation (August 2014)

Before graduation, I met up with a friend and explained to him how my plan of being grown and on my own had failed and he reminded me that our plans are not always God’s plans. Although it made sense, I wasn’t trying to hear it at the time. My plan was the best plan and it felt like God was just ignoring me. Finally, I got tired of trying to do it all myself, so I stopped (it took about two weeks after graduation for me to get to this point). I remember saying “God, You do it.” In the month after graduation, I went on five or so interviews and one particular company stood out. I had applied to this company before I graduated and didn’t hear anything from them. God had it set up that my friend had recently been hired and he was able to make some phone calls and get me an interview. Before this company called me, two other companies had called and offered me positions and I turned both down because I knew where I was supposed to be. Less than a month after graduation, I was offered a job at my top choice. And on top of that, by some rather interesting turn of events, I was also able to move into my own place (well my younger sister lives here too, so I guess it’s our place) less than a week later. It may not have happened when I wanted it to or how I wanted it to but in the end, I won.

I’m not going to lie, as overly confident as I believe myself to be, I felt like a failure in the days leading up to graduation. I had this degree and no job and everyone around me seemed to be moving on with their lives, starting new jobs and getting married and so on. But God. I actually felt guilty for awhile after getting my job and moving into my apartment because I knew how stubborn I was at some points and even ungrateful at times, but He still blessed me. My job (and my apartment) is better than I ever could have imagined. While you’re going through your storm, remember, He’s setting you up to win. Even when I get fed up with every day stuff (being single, loans, my job, my future), I remind myself of this point in my life. At times I can be so logical, and want to have every detail figured out and a timeline to go with it before I take a step, forgetting that if I trust God, my steps are already ordered and I can’t lose in Him.  Psalms 46:10 tells us to be still and know that He is God. We get so lost in ourselves and forget the God we serve and what He is capable of. It doesn’t have to add up, it doesn’t have to make sense, it doesn’t have to be fair. The game is rigged, you win.

2 Chronicles 20:15 And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the Lord unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God’s.