Sundays With Rae

a blog for women by a woman who is trying to get her life together while still loving Jesus

Destinations and Journeys

Pursue purpose.
Be a goal digger.
Turn your hobby into your hustle.
Do the work you love and you’ll never work a day in your life.

It’s what I keep repeating to myself, but I don’t seem to be measuring up to the expectation. Starting to second guess myself, every move I make drenched in hesitation. If what’s for me is for me, why do I have to work so hard? Why am I constantly having to pick myself up off the ground and lick my own wounds? No one said it would be easy, I just didn’t think it would feel like cruel and unusual punishment. That is until I suffer a win and my labor doesn’t quite feel like it was in vain. Long nights seem worth it. It’s only then that I embrace disappointment and failure no longer seems like an option. And I tell myself…

Pursue purpose.
Be a goal digger.
Turn my hobby into my hustle.
Do the work I love and I’ll never work a day in my life.

So even when I grow tired and weary, God help me remember this is who You called me to be. Head bowed under an open sky, trying not to cry, help me remember I was made for this and I’d be remiss if I let it pass me by. Remind me stop signs aren’t dead ends, there’s plenty of road ahead. So pedal to the metal, I can’t give up now. Keep me in the fast lane, I don’t want to slow down. There is no destination, this is the journey with plenty of sights to see. Help me take it all in as I…

Pursue purpose.
Be a goal digger.
Turn my hobby into my hustle.
Do the work I love and I’ll never work a day in my life.

 

Matthew 19:26 But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible

 

June 2020

 

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God’s Expectation

All my friends who are pursuing and currently working in the film industry are the same. Every project they do, they give it 100%. Every. Project. It doesn’t matter how big or small or how much they’re getting paid (or if they’re getting paid at all), they always give it all they’ve got. They stay up all hours of the night to see the vision in their heads come to life. No matter what the expectation is, whether low or high, they always set the bar just barely within reach because they always want their work to be the best they could do. I believe this is how God calls all of us to pursue life. The work we do shouldn’t just meet our expectations, but it should be what God expects of us; our very best.

I’ve told you all before, I’m lazy. There is just no other way to explain it. Most things I do, I do just enough to get by. Enough for someone to say, “that was pretty good,” and even if they don’t, at least they can say I got it done. I’m aware it’s a very mediocre way to live life but it usually leaves me more time to watch TV (don’t judge me). This has served me well up until now. I’m in a season of my life where I’m asking God to do some pretty BIG things. I mean things I’m scared to say out loud but I’m crazy enough to believe Him for it. As I was praying about some of these things, God asked me if I’d be willing to meet His expectations. I literally paused because I knew my answer should be yes but I also knew what this “yes” meant. What’s BIG to me, is little for Him, but I know what I’m asking requires me to live a less mediocre life. It requires staying up all hours of the night. It requires being uncomfortable sometimes to get the job done. It requires showing myself friendly (Proverbs 18:24). It requires obedience, when sacrifice seems like enough (1 Samuel 15:22).

For someone like myself, who is in their winning season, God’s expectations have to become my expectations. There is no way around it. I can’t take shortcuts. I can’t half do it. Everything I do, I have to do my very best even if no one else expects it of me because all I long to do is meet God’s expectation of me.

Colossians 3:23 And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;

June 2019