Sundays With Rae

a blog for women by a woman who is trying to get her life together while still loving Jesus

If God Said It…

So I was teaching Sunday School this morning and we were talking about Abraham and how God kept His promise to give Abraham and Sarah, his wife, a son and he would make Abraham the father of many (Genesis 15, 17). God didn’t do it right away and while waiting, Abraham and Sarah became doubtful, but God still delivered on His promise. This made me think about a previous post I wrote in 2017 called Promise Keeper, and I’m amazed at how I’m living out some of those promises God told me back then.

It’s so easy to get distracted by what we don’t have and the more time that goes by without it, the further away it seems. But today, I was reminded that God is still a promise keeper. In 2017, those things God had promised me were nowhere to be found (like they may as well have not existed). And since then, I’ve had all kinds of doubts but just like God delivered on His promise to Abraham, He’s delivering His promises to me.

I like to plan things and know when they’re going to happen but I’m grateful God is the ultimate planner and didn’t come through with the promises when I thought I was ready but waited until He knew I was ready. There are a number of opportunities I would have missed out on if things went according to my plan (I’m talking life changing experiences). I’m grateful God knew I needed more time so I could truly appreciate His blessings and was mature enough to handle the parts of the blessings I didn’t expect.

God keeps His promises. He always has and always will. Put your trust in what He said, not in how you feel. Take joy in knowing He will show up when He’s supposed to show up. He’s not going to forget (which, honestly, was one of my greatest fears). I don’t know who said it but I do my best to live by it: starve your fear, feed your faith. And remember, He said what He said, He promised.

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

July 2020

If you’re struggling to believe God, I encourage you to read Promise Keeper.

Halfway There

Believe it or not, we’re almost halfway through 2020. With everything going on, it certainly feels like we’ve been in 2020 longer than six months. Never in a million years could I have imagined that we would be where we are when I wrote down my goals for 2020. From pandemic to protests, these past six months have not been for the faint of heart. But even with so much going on, you are here! You are alive and breathing, and that’s worth celebrating.

At the beginning of every year, a lot of people set goals for the year. Some call them new year’s resolutions, some call them a vision board, some call it a plan, and for some it’s just some stuff they want to get done. Whether it’s lose weight, write more, read your bible, go to church, go to therapy, start your business, eat better, draw more, get a new job, meditate, save more, whatever it is, I’m encouraging you to revisit it. You may have had more time or less time these past three months to accomplish your goals, just know there is still time. We have no idea what tomorrow holds but choose to do something towards your goals today.

One of my goals for this year was to read ten books. I certainly have had more time to get this done but I realized today it’s been a month or so since I finished my last book and I still have six more books to go. So I’m going to choose a book today and continue pursuing that goal. It’s that simple. Just because you’re not where you thought you would be this time of year, doesn’t mean you can’t get there. I know you paid for that gym membership and the gyms closed; start walking around your neighborhood or find some workouts on Youtube that you can do at home. I know you started saving money, then you got let go; even if it’s two dollars from that unemployment check, save that. I know you were set to launch that business and now everything is at a standstill; keep networking and promoting yourself.

When I played basketball, during halftime if my team was down, my coach would always say, “we have another whole half to go. We can do this.” You have another whole half to go. You can do this. We’re only halfway there.

Philippians 1:6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ

 

June 2020

Filling Time With Feelings

I recently told someone it’s been May 20th the past couple of days in my world. Time has become such a fluid concept for me (which I’m sure my bosses did not appreciate considering I had deadlines to meet). However, as a child, I was obsessed with time. I wore ugly sports watches well into high school because I always wanted to know what time it was. Now, it just doesn’t seem to be that important. The days come and go. I’ve had really great days and other days, not so much. I’ve talked to friends a lot more than I usually would have. I’ve stayed up way past my bedtime most nights. I’ve read books. I haven’t written as much as I’ve wanted to. I’ve cooked (yes, me, I cooked). I’ve done bible plans. I’ve exercised. I’ve loathed video conferences. I’ve cried. I’ve taken breaks from social media and the news. I’ve prayed. I’ve laughed. I’ve done a whole lot since the world took a “kind of” pause but I’m realizing through writing this, that I’ve let a lot of time just go by.

Some days I’ve been really intentional. Sometimes I intentionally rested and sometimes I intentionally completed tasks, but I haven’t had enough of those intentional days. With that in mind, I’m going to do more to fill my time with things I set out to do (being intentional) instead of just going to bed at 4am, clueless as to how it got to be so late and unsure of what I’ve done with the day (being lazy). That may look like me sleeping in until noon some days and other days getting up at 8am (probably not going to do much earlier than that unless I’m highly motivated). That may look like reading a book for four hours or binge watching “A Different World.” That may look like praying/mediating for an hour or listening to music while playing Candy Crush Soda Saga. That may look like doing a video call with my college friends or harassing my younger sister about whatever comes to mind. That may look like writing about everything and nothing or looking up recipes I’m not going to make. And that may still look like, “today we’re going to just see what happens,” sometimes. We don’t all have to start a new business or become fitness gurus (shout out to those of you who did though; I can’t tell you how proud I am to call y’all friends!) but we all have to be responsible for what we do with our time. I want to fill my time with things that feel right for me. I want to look back and be able to say time did not pass me, but I decided how I passed it.

As in control as I thought God was, this whole pandemic has shown me just how true that is. He is working things out for good, and even after we get to our new normal, I always want to fill time with feelings.

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

May 2020

I’ve Seen Us

I watched 29 minutes and 13 seconds of the first part of Ava DuVernay’s “When They See Us.” That was all my soul could bear. I could not watch it for the culture. I could not mentally and emotionally prepare myself to watch over 3 more hours of a story in which I knew the ending. I have read countless articles about this miscarriage of justice but I cannot bring myself to view the very real images that the words of these articles illustrated. I am aware that I can turn off my TV but Antron McCray, Kevin Richardson, Yusef Salaam, Raymond Santana, and Korey Wise can not turn off the nightmare they endured, and my soul cries for them and the many others who go unseen.

I am forever grateful for the work of Ava DuVernay. This series was not meant to entertain but it was meant to tell a truth that many knew nothing about. I had the wonderful pleasure of working with black boys involved in the juvenile justice system. Boys who most of the world wouldn’t see as beautiful. Boys, who were in fact, boys. Boys living with parents with little money who worked long hours and wanted the best for their sons. Boys who spent a lot of time being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Boys who may not have done everything right, but were at risk of being wrongfully accused of crimes they knew nothing about. I’ve spent many hours in their homes with their families, watching them be boys while also watching as a system turned them into monsters and I felt powerless.

Don’t be so quick to write off people who choose not to watch “When They See Us.” There are people who refuse to acknowledge the reality those five boys faced. People who have not had to deal with the reality of the system not being built for brown and black people. But some of us are all too familiar. Some of us watched Ava DuVernay’s 13th. Some of us spent days grieving the loss of Kalief Browder as though he was our little brother. Some of us got to sit in holding rooms of detention centers with black boys we knew wouldn’t taste freedom for a long time. Some of us simply cannot. I am glad this series is reaching the masses and I pray the world really takes the time to truly see us.

…justice and liberty for all.

Proverbs 21: 3 To do justice and judgment is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.

On Time

Christmas 2018

So last night my plane was supposed to land at 10:34pm. It did not land until 2:35am. I wasn’t happy about it, but I wasn’t upset. Upon arriving at the airport, I received an email saying my 8:54pm flight had been delayed by an hour. That’s not too bad. My phone and iPad were charged so the extra time was not really an issue. I expected the wait. Minutes then hours passed by and we started boarding the plane. Before I knew it, they closed the airplane door around 10:10pm and all was well. Until it wasn’t. The airplane door reopened, and we sat waiting. Ten or so minutes later the captain came on and said something about a panel missing and blah blah blah but we should be up and running in the next fifteen minutes. Fifteen minutes came and went. It was a little after 10:45pm when the captain came back on to tell us we would have to get on another plane; a plane that wasn’t landing until 12am. I did not expect this wait. But I had no other choice than to endure it. So, I walked to the terminal they directed us to (which was not close), got some chips and a soda, and I waited. The other plane landed and because it was an international flight, not only did they have to clean it, but they had to do a security sweep. Translation: more waiting. Somewhere after 1am we were up, up, and away.

Through the expected and unexpected waiting, I finally got to my destination. Not at the time I was told I would or thought I should, but at the time I got there. We put expectation on ourselves and other people put them on us about where we should be in life based on an invisible list, and we fall apart or think of ourselves as less than when we don’t get there “in time.” However, we’re right on time because we serve a God who is on time. So maybe this year you did not accomplish everything you set out to accomplish, but trust that you are still on your way to your destination. Even if you have to wait it out and go places you didn’t expect to, you will get there on time.

Ecclesiastes 3:1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven