Sundays With Rae

a blog for women by a woman who is trying to get her life together while still loving Jesus

Pretty Lies and Ugly Truths

Have you ever told a lie to make yourself feel better about a particular situation? You didn’t just tell a lie but you dressed it up nicely and made it sound real good? You weren’t speaking life over yourself, you weren’t walking out on faith; you just didn’t want to deal with yourself and your emotions. Maybe you did it consciously, maybe you didn’t, but if WE’RE honest with ourselves, we can admit we’ve done it before. Those pretty lies we tell ourselves are music to our ears. We bask in the ambiance they provide until we’re forced to hear the tune of ugly truths. The piercing sound we can’t wish away.

I don’t have a temper. I don’t care what other people think about me. I’m not a jealous person. I’m over him. I don’t need them. It wasn’t that deep. I like sticking to myself. I don’t want the attention. I’m happier now. We’re still friends. My relationship with God is fine. I don’t need their approval. I didn’t try that hard anyway. I’m not worried about it. There’s nothing to tell. Pretty lies have a way of mistaking confidence for insecurities. If we can convince everyone else, we think eventually we’ll start believing it. And sometimes we can, but only for a little while because we always find a way to tell on ourselves.

I don’t think I’m that pretty. I’m not where I want to be in life. My feelings are really hurt. I want my mom’s approval. He doesn’t love me. I’m not sure I believe in God. I’m not good at making or keeping friends. I don’t think I’m smart. I want to be well liked. I want to be noticed. I think about dying every day. I don’t think I’ll ever get married. I spend too much money. I don’t want to forgive. Ugly truths tell a story we want no part of, only to find ourselves listed as the main character. It’s a reality we don’t want to face but it stares back at us like our reflection in the mirror. The farther we try to run from it, the closer we find ourselves to it.

Once you uncover the pretty lies and recognize the ugly truths, now what? Sing this with me: Take it to the Lord in prayer… We have to be willing to admit where we are weak, so why not admit it to the one whose strength is made perfect in our weakness? Ask God to help you make friends. Ask God to help you believe in Him. Ask God to help you express your hurt feelings effectively. And when the opportunity to believe the lie presents itself (I’m telling you, it will), choose to acknowledge the truth and let God be strong. It may be uncomfortable, you probably won’t feel like it, it may even seem contrary to your character, but choose to follow God and His truth anyway.

John 8:32, 36 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free… If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

July 2019

Promise Keeper

Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye. As children, we spoke these words showing our commitment to whatever it was we promised. Now that I think about it, that was a pretty harsh punishment for a 7 year old breaking a promise. But when we heard those words, there was a reassurance the person would deliver on their promise.

Recently, I was talking to God about some things He told me He would do in 2017 and I was reminding Him of His promises. I went through each item, reminded Him when He said it, how He said it, provided scripture as support. I felt like someone auditioning for American Idol who had been told they were going to Hollywood, and instead of jumping for joy, they stood there and kept repeating, “remember, you said I would make it to Hollywood? Don’t forget. We talked about it earlier. Remember, I hit that high note.” You made it to Hollywood, what is there to continue to talk about? God already told me what I desire is mine, what else is there to do or say but to rejoice?

As I sit to write this blog, I realize I was waiting for God to say, “cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye.” I forgot that all I need is His Word. His Word is reassuring, its insurance, it’s hope, it’s peace, it’s true, and it’ll come to pass. I don’t need to add to it or allow my doubt to take away from it. I found myself telling God He didn’t have to deliver on the whole promise, if He could just do half or even a part of the promise, I would be happy with that. I became so impatient, I was willing to settle for just a piece of what God had for me. I can only imagine how God looked at me: “girl chill out and let Me do Me.”

God is a promise keeper so whatever you’re believing Him to do, keep believing, go ahead and start praising Him for it. Don’t let the devil trick you into believing it’s too late, there’s not enough money, you don’t have the experience, you’re not pretty enough, or that no one will listen. The devil is a liar and the truth is not in him; he’s the father of lies (John 8:44). If God said He would do it, know that He will because He’s not a God that He should lie (Numbers 23:19). That business, that degree, that spouse, that child, that book, that job, that church, that parent, that house, that financial aid, that healing, that loan, that car, eternal life; God, You promised. I want ALL of Your promises (2 Corinthians 1:20). And You don’t have to cross Your heart and hope to die or stick a needle in Your eye, to prove to me You will deliver on those promises. Your Word is enough because You’re a promise keeper.

Genesis 9:16 And the bow shall be in the cloud; and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is upon the earth.

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3 Things to Remind Me Who I am and Who He is

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There are times I find myself questioning who I am in Christ. Who is God to me? What do I have to do to be “better” in Christ? Why can’t I hear from God? Am I doing my part? Am I doing enough? What exactly am I suppose to be doing? I pretty much get into a state of uncertainty.These scriptures help bring me back to what I know is true.

2 Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

I always get chills when I read this scripture. It is so confident and reassuring. It makes you examine yourself: are you called by God?  Are you humble? Do you pray? Do you seek His face? Have you turned from your wicked ways? So often, we want to hear from God and we want Him to answer all our prayers (with the answers we’re looking for, of course), but these questions ask if we’re in the position to be heard. We are not blessed because of our deeds, but we claim to have such wonderful relationships with God and relationships require everyone involved to put in work and time (Luke 12:48).

Deuteronomy 7:9

Know therefore that the Lord thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;

I could do a whole post about the nature of God (I probably will), but this scripture serves as a reminder. Again, we CANNOT win God over, but there are benefits that come along with being obedient. Some of us are living off of the covenant and mercy of our forefathers because they loved God (we are the thousand generations). He is God, He is faithful, and there is nothing we can do about it. It’s who He is.

Jeremiah 1:5

Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.

We are already who He called us to be. Before we were born, He made it so. We do not have to seek confirmation from ten different people, come across seventeen different signs, to know that we know that we know. You know and I know. Believe it. Walk in it. (Jeremiah 29:11)